{"id":576,"date":"2021-08-29T18:55:28","date_gmt":"2021-08-29T18:55:28","guid":{"rendered":"https:\/\/www.franciscodesales.com\/?p=576"},"modified":"2021-09-20T17:36:51","modified_gmt":"2021-09-20T17:36:51","slug":"ya-no-te-tengo-madre","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/www.franciscodesales.com\/index.php\/2021\/08\/29\/ya-no-te-tengo-madre\/","title":{"rendered":"Ya no te tengo, madre"},"content":{"rendered":"\n<p>Cuando era ni\u00f1o <\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>mi pensamiento era una enorme llanura <\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>vac\u00eda de preocupaciones y sobresaltos. <\/p>\n\n\n\n<p><\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>A lo m\u00e1s, <\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>me atacaba una tribu de indios, <\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>pero yo era el General Custer <\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>y me secundaba el S\u00e9ptimo de Caballer\u00eda. <\/p>\n\n\n\n<p><\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>Y si por un azar <\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>una noche sent\u00eda un drag\u00f3n en la oscuridad, <\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>el miedo me escond\u00eda tras los p\u00e1rpados cerrados <\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>y elud\u00eda el peligro y sus ataques. <\/p>\n\n\n\n<p><\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>No recuerdo un temor por\u00a0<em>el qu\u00e9 vendr\u00e1<\/em>, <\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>ni una inquietud ante mi propio futuro, <\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>ni preocupaci\u00f3n ante la llegada de la vejez, <\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>que era feudo exclusivo de los abuelos. <\/p>\n\n\n\n<p><\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>No me preocupaban el amor y sus terremotos, <\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>ni qu\u00e9 oficio habr\u00eda de elegir m\u00e1s adelante, <\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>pero s\u00ed d\u00f3nde extravi\u00e9 mi canica <\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>y no perderme los dibujos animados de la televisi\u00f3n. <\/p>\n\n\n\n<p><\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>No me preocupaba gastar las horas <\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>porque los d\u00edas era casi inacabables, <\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>y los a\u00f1os eran inversamente proporcionales <\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>a la escasa duraci\u00f3n de los helados. <\/p>\n\n\n\n<p><\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>Si llueve qu\u00e9 bien y si no llueve qu\u00e9 bien. <\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>Si se cae la torre de fichas vuelvo a empezar. <\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>Si tengo sue\u00f1o, me quedo dormido donde sea. <\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>Si me caigo, no me quejo y lo olvido. <\/p>\n\n\n\n<p><\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>Ahora todo es de otro modo. <\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>Algunas sonrisas requieren un esfuerzo, <\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>la naturalidad es a veces bastante falsa, <\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>y los dolores son m\u00e1s intensos. <\/p>\n\n\n\n<p><\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>Tengo sesenta y siete a\u00f1os en todos los poros, <\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>y en los huesos, casi mil; <\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>en la memoria, un grand\u00edsimo vac\u00edo <\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>salpicado de motas de recuerdos y muchos olvidos. <\/p>\n\n\n\n<p><\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>No tengo a mi madre, <\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>ni la volver\u00e9 a tener, <\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>ni podr\u00e9 pedirle ayuda, ni sonre\u00edrle, <\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>ni besar su mano, ni pasearla del brazo\u2026 <\/p>\n\n\n\n<p><\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>Nada de lo que pase o me pase <\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>duele tanto como su ausencia. <\/p>\n\n\n\n<p><\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>Si acaso, la imposibilidad de poder ir a rescatarla, <\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>de tomar un caf\u00e9 con ella, <\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>de coger y aquietar su mano temblorosa, <\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>de darle las gracias de todos los modos, <\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>de defenderla a muerte de la muerte, <\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>de multiplicar los segundos a su lado, <\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>de depositar un beso en sus labios, <\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>de rezar con ella su rosario, <\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>de secundar emocionado sus sonrisas, <\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>de preguntarle si tiene calor o fr\u00edo, <\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>de prepararle el caf\u00e9 con leche, <\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>de empeque\u00f1ecerme en su regazo, <\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>de pedirle que me cante una nana, <\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>de escucharle decir que se siente orgullosa de m\u00ed, <\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>o de o\u00edrle decir, otra vez, que me quiere\u2026 <\/p>\n\n\n\n<p><\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>Ya no tengo m\u00e1s que un vac\u00edo. <\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>Y no est\u00e1 ella para llenarlo. <\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>Francisco de Sales <\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"<p>Cuando era ni\u00f1o mi pensamiento era una enorme llanura vac\u00eda de preocupaciones y sobresaltos. 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